April | 2013 | It makes me shutter...

TRAIN IN VAIN ~ Strummer/Jones

Say you stand by your man

Tell me something I don’t understand
You said you love me and that’s a fact
Then you left me, said you felt trapped

Well some things you can explain away
But my heartache’s in me till this day

Did you stand by me
No, not at all
Did you stand by me
No way

All the times
When we were close
I’ll remember these things the most
I see all my dreams come tumbling down
I won’t be happy without you around

So all alone I keep the wolves at bay
There is only one thing that I can say

Did you stand by me
No, not at all
Did you stand by me
No way

You must explain why this must be

Did you lie when you spoke to me

Did you stand by me
No, not at all

Now I got a job
But it don’t pay
I need new clothes
I need somewhere to stay
But without all these things I can do
But without your love I won’t make it through

But you don’t understand my point of view
I suppose there’s nothing I can do

Did you stand by me
No, not at all
Did you stand by me
No way

You must explain why this must be
Did you lie when you spoke to me?

Did you stand by me
Did you stand by me
No, not at all
Did you stand by me
No way

And the play list continues. Music as therapy. Always has been. Probably always will

HOW DO I LET GO — Dennis Ferrer

I will heed the call, when I’m ready I’ll give my all

Cuz reality is a dream to me when you play that song
If there is such a place (a place)
Let me go there I’m gonna erase (erase)
Negativity raining down on me…(leave me stressfully?)So i gotta know, ohh, ohh, ohh how do i let go?
How do i let go
Cuz the thought of losing me
Keeps me dancing to be free
Ohh, ohh, ohh how do i let go
How do I let go
When you got me losing my mind
I’m not ready
It’s not my time

Ever since you came such a feeling rushed my way
It’s so real to me how you set me free when you play my song
I give thanks to you
Cuz you save me
And that’s hard to do
Now reality, not so far from me
That’s how it should be
I’m so glad to know…
Ohh, ohh, ohh how do I let go…
How do I let go
Cuz the thought of losing me keeps me dancing to be free
(got to be free)
Ohh, ohh, ohh how do i let go
How do I let go
When you got me losing my mind
I’m not ready, it’s not my time.
(it’s not my time)
Ohh, ohh, ohh, how do I let go
How do i let go
Cuz the thought of losing me keeps me dancing to be free
Ohh, ohh, ohh how do I let go, how do I let go…

When you got me losing my mind
I’m not ready it’s not my time
I’m not ready, no, no, no, no, no, no, no……
How do i let go…how do i let go, how do i let go?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=uZIGBuYKa6A

Again ( still?) I let myself get so trampled under foot by my emotions and how I allow myself to tumble for ones that just seem to fuck with my head, play with my emotions, shatter me heart. yes, yes, yes..I know..I allow it to happen. These ones really aren’t THAT magically brilliant to sway me that I just lose myself so easily. And it has been happening for years. I tell myself : “Self! Don’t let that happen again.” But it does…it always does.

The letting go has always been difficult for me. Such a clingy one I am. I try not to be..don’t feel like I am…but in truth, I am.

I have a host of friends and acquaintances around me..good people who build me up just by sharing friendship.

But NOOO! I have to go riding through the rough stumbling and obsessing over these ones who seem to cause me more pain than happiness. At this point in my life…and I guess I should have realized this earlier on: Friends should make me feel happiness , not cause me sadness.

So I have to let go of these negative ones I have allowed in. Seems/sounds so easy..with some it is, others not so much.

Then again too…everyone brings me a lesson to learn. Some lessons I have just taken longer to learn. Everyone in my life, past present and future is a teacher and for that i am grateful….I just need to be more aware of the syllabus and the course offerings. Where is that Life Handbook?? oh, right.

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